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What does it mean to be a leader?
As a chid, we stand in a line in front of our classroom door, to go to the next space to expand our minds, and our line leader shows us the way. They are the chosen one, because they listened, they followed the rules, they checked every box. I never wanted to follow them. I wanted to walk in my own line, not out of disrespect, more out of sheer phobia of getting lost in the line somehow. If I mix in too much, I may disappear. That has set my trajectory of line leader for my entire life, especially in my career. So then the question arises, am I a leader due to fear, or because my individuality is so glaringly obvious to me and those around me?
The interesting thing about being Mrs. Jones's line leader is that I, as a follower, can only see the back of your head.
It is left to my imagination what you are thinking, your reaction to our next space or lesson, the smile on your face because of the high five coming up from Sally as you pass her in the hall. I have all kinds of preconceived notions about your experience, your exchanges, your process. I am FOR SURE thinking about you, you are with me, you are directing me. The kid behind me may be thinking about his shoe being untied or her backpack being too heavy, but I am thinking about the experience of your experience of experiencing leadership.
As we lead, we take on a great responsibility.
I have a dear friend who leads a community of athletes; strong, powerful, focused athletes. She is tough, and strikingly beautiful, and clear, and trail blazing. She is filled with creative drive and her trail is hilly, sometimes steep, always eye opening journey to follow. I don't have time, while being led by her, to think about her experience, as I am so inSPIRED by the experience of being led by her. Her trail becomes my own, she leads, I follow, but lose myself in the path to where I begin to self lead. Our leadership role meets somewhere in the space between, and there is a very blurred line of responsibility. Is it my job to course correct, shadow, follow, learn, teach, grow? Is it her job to guide, push, pull, encourage, distract, lean in? Is all of it true? The more I am inspired by her, the more the journey takes me in and I lose my roles. That is great leadership. There is no more I. There is only we, and the experience.
My hope as a leader.
My self guided path as a leader is for sure filled with good intentions. I want to create a powerful experience for my line, my patients, my kids, my students. I want to inspire greatness for those who come after me. I will not always be here and the pungent clarity that consistently greatens my effort arises from the KNOWING that I have the ability to truly lead from a place of inspiration, awakened thought, greatness. So that out of my lessons my students will rise up and truly create change. Every adjustment, every word, every thought, every hug, dance, laugh, smile can go one of two ways; it can heighten the experience of the receiver, or it can devalue the potential of the exchange. I don't want my students to think about me, I want them to be OBSESSED with being better, kinder, faster, stiller, clearer. I want them to be too busy with their trajectory to think about me and my path and my high fives.
My name is Dr. Jodi Dinnerman and I have been a practitioner of Living lnJOY for as long as I can remember. I do believe it is a practice, as there are many distractions, illusions, misunderstandings and misguided interpretations that can easily keep us from being in a state of JOY.